The Turning Point.
I'm just going to rattle at this point. So if you find it boring, go ahead read this lying down and perhaps you have found the cure to your insomnia.
I cannot say that life is on the downhill for me. It's an uphill task at the moment. Physically, alhamdulillah, I'm healthy. This reminds me that I need to do a crowning for my upper incisor. I cracked it on the 2nd day of Ramadhan and had it fixed after two weeks of suffering. The dentist advised me to do a crowning and that will cost me at least $500/-
Emotionally, I am hurting. Hurting for two reasons.
My mom passed away peacefully within 24 hours of her suffering. She had a heart failure that caused her internal organs to stop functioning. It is painful to let go but I had to let go. I've accepted her departure and moved on. Let us recite Surah Al-Fatiha and may the rewards be channelled towards her soul.
I remember that it was on the second day after the burial, I was surprised that my hotmail account had been hijacked. I have not been using hotmail for a long long time but I do go into it as my bank sends email to that old account. I am glad that I no longer owe any BANKS money. My Bank account is cleared of debts.
But I was curious to know what my Bank would send me after I settled my account 4 months ago. That was when I discovered that my hotmail had been hijacked!
Spent like 45 minutes resetting my password, worried that I can no longer have access to my hotmail and also my MSN account.
Having signed into both automatically after resetting the password which is ********* , a message came through.
It was from a friend whom I have not chatted since I left the airport. SN nudged me and I was playful in my replies to her. She asked me about how I was coping with my ex girlfriend and somehow she joked about wanting to be my special someone.
I created a poem in reply -->
Can you find a way into my heart?
Can you heal the pain I'm having?
Can we not be far apart
Always away and leaving?
I cannot say that life is on the downhill for me. It's an uphill task at the moment. Physically, alhamdulillah, I'm healthy. This reminds me that I need to do a crowning for my upper incisor. I cracked it on the 2nd day of Ramadhan and had it fixed after two weeks of suffering. The dentist advised me to do a crowning and that will cost me at least $500/-
Emotionally, I am hurting. Hurting for two reasons.
My mom passed away peacefully within 24 hours of her suffering. She had a heart failure that caused her internal organs to stop functioning. It is painful to let go but I had to let go. I've accepted her departure and moved on. Let us recite Surah Al-Fatiha and may the rewards be channelled towards her soul.
I remember that it was on the second day after the burial, I was surprised that my hotmail account had been hijacked. I have not been using hotmail for a long long time but I do go into it as my bank sends email to that old account. I am glad that I no longer owe any BANKS money. My Bank account is cleared of debts.
But I was curious to know what my Bank would send me after I settled my account 4 months ago. That was when I discovered that my hotmail had been hijacked!
Spent like 45 minutes resetting my password, worried that I can no longer have access to my hotmail and also my MSN account.
Having signed into both automatically after resetting the password which is ********* , a message came through.
It was from a friend whom I have not chatted since I left the airport. SN nudged me and I was playful in my replies to her. She asked me about how I was coping with my ex girlfriend and somehow she joked about wanting to be my special someone.
I created a poem in reply -->
Can you find a way into my heart?
Can you heal the pain I'm having?
Can we not be far apart
Always away and leaving?
The first two lines refer to SN and the last two to SPG.
I have not let go of my ex girlfriend and will not be able to accept someone else .... yet.
SN knows nothing of what the poem meant. She kept SMSing me after we logged off MSN and that was nearly 2.30am. I had given her my number even though I have not been giving away my new number to anybody apart for my family and SPG. The SMS stopped 2 days later since I did not reply.
The next day, I got a shock that she blogged about me. She stated that she was surprised that I, being a person of my age (meaning old) would miss my mom.
That was so wrong. I got over her departure but I do still miss her. Age has nothing to do with missing someone. Where does it state that only young kids can miss their mom? I've known her for all my life. I have the right to miss her and missing her I shall always be. Fullstop.
There goes her hopes of hitching me!
The next hurting moment was/is with SPG. She keeps hurting me emotionally. The confusion in feeling hurt healed part of both.
My mom's death healed my hurting feeling caused by SPG and SPG's anger healed my feelings about my mom's death. For a sweet 3 weeks my life changed!
This Counselling Psychology works!
I was able to focus. I AM in focus and that made SPG see the change in me. She kept calling me and realised that I am a different person.
That was my BIGGEST mistake .... Accepting her back into my life.
Is it wrong to surprise someone whom you love by being outside the dentist when she is having her wisdom tooth extraction?
It is wrong according to SPG. I know why.
She told me not to come (although I came) to the dentist.
When I arrived at the dentist, outside waiting for her was her Ang Moh lover!!!!!
Thus, I am now hurting.
That's the story for now. There will not be any updates about SPG as it is a private and personal matter.
There will be other things to blog about, though.
By the way, I believe Dr. Frederick Toke or his associates are reading this. Thank you!
I have not let go of my ex girlfriend and will not be able to accept someone else .... yet.
SN knows nothing of what the poem meant. She kept SMSing me after we logged off MSN and that was nearly 2.30am. I had given her my number even though I have not been giving away my new number to anybody apart for my family and SPG. The SMS stopped 2 days later since I did not reply.
The next day, I got a shock that she blogged about me. She stated that she was surprised that I, being a person of my age (meaning old) would miss my mom.
That was so wrong. I got over her departure but I do still miss her. Age has nothing to do with missing someone. Where does it state that only young kids can miss their mom? I've known her for all my life. I have the right to miss her and missing her I shall always be. Fullstop.
There goes her hopes of hitching me!
The next hurting moment was/is with SPG. She keeps hurting me emotionally. The confusion in feeling hurt healed part of both.
My mom's death healed my hurting feeling caused by SPG and SPG's anger healed my feelings about my mom's death. For a sweet 3 weeks my life changed!
This Counselling Psychology works!
I was able to focus. I AM in focus and that made SPG see the change in me. She kept calling me and realised that I am a different person.
That was my BIGGEST mistake .... Accepting her back into my life.
Is it wrong to surprise someone whom you love by being outside the dentist when she is having her wisdom tooth extraction?
It is wrong according to SPG. I know why.
She told me not to come (although I came) to the dentist.
When I arrived at the dentist, outside waiting for her was her Ang Moh lover!!!!!
Thus, I am now hurting.
That's the story for now. There will not be any updates about SPG as it is a private and personal matter.
There will be other things to blog about, though.
By the way, I believe Dr. Frederick Toke or his associates are reading this. Thank you!
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